baby iLove u!
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Holding On
My world is closing in I’m so alone
The door is locked and nobody’s home
Desire is the key that I must own
Emotions get me losing control
I’m losing control
But I know
It’s the way that I must live
Even though
It’s so unclear, so unfair
God I know
There’s a path for everyone
I must believe and keep holding on
I’m wishing I was somebody else
This world left me all by myself
Now why do they keep playing with my mind
Trying to break me down trying to make me blind
But I see
Cuz I know
It’s the way that I must live
Even though
It’s so unclear, so unfair
God I know
There’s a path for everyone
I must believe and keep holding on
God I know
There’s a path for everyone
I must believe and keep holding on
Never let my fears conquer me
Cuz I know in my heart what I can be
Holding on.
Baby, i'm still holding on..
-BeautyBrainz-
7:08 PM
wads goin on???
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Baby what's wrong??
As i sat by myself typing this, I didn't realize that i'm actualy crying. I just couldn't control my emotion. Oh God why my heart doesn't feel good? Why is all this in my mind? I wonder why im always thinking of this. What's going on between me and him? Sometimes, my heart tells me that he's not serious in this relationship. But, if he's not, why he asked me back in the first place? ARGHH!!! But., why i feel like he's getting further from me? Maybe i'm just thinking too much. But eversince we've got together i've never heard him say iLove you. Deleting comments, hiding status. Whats goin on actualy? Its hurting but, i just have to take everything easily. Bare and take all consequences. Oh God if this is how u test me, i'll accept it. Does he even realize how i feel towards him? How im feeling now. Am i not appreciated by him? Or is he taking revenge on what i did to him before? Baby i nid to know whats wrong. You're not the usual you. Am i forcing you to be with me? I just want a simple relationship, a simple yet meaningful one. It can be meaningful for as long we don't hide things out to each other. I cried everynight, and pray so that he'll realize how much iLove him. God knows how im feeling now. I'm never giving up my love for him cause, all iLove is him and i wouldn't wanna loose it again like how i use to. Baby can we start afresh? Lets forget the past and start anew. New episode in life. But, if i really have to loose you, i got no choice but try to accept it. I know there's no way he ought to find out what i wrote and feel but Sweetheart, if you're reading this, i want you to know that iLove you so much. And if you think there's someone out there who's way better then me im willing to let you go. For the sake of your happiness. Maybe you would not realize how much i love you now. But, maybe in future you will, and i hope the moment you realize it, it won't be too late. Baby iLove u!
-BeautyBrainz-
8:34 PM
love yea!
Friday, August 22, 2008
blablabla
hahahahahaha
hehehehehehehehe
huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
well, nutink much to sae den just,
Mohd Noorshaheed iLove u!!
BABY iLove u!!!!!!!
syg u biie!!!!
haha!!
im just so insane..
-BeautyBrainz-
hahahahahaha
hehehehehehehehe
huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
well, nutink much to sae den just,
Mohd Noorshaheed iLove u!!
BABY iLove u!!!!!!!
syg u biie!!!!
haha!!
im just so insane..
-BeautyBrainz-
2:09 AM
Bby iLove u!
Monday, August 18, 2008
haizz..
another day at work..
took off yesterday, had enuff rest..
well, im just so hepi..
finally, we're back together..
its unexpected i noe but its true,
we're back together as before..
oke2 let stay calm..
breathe in......................
and,
OUT!
haha!! i can't reali explain how im feeling now,
cos im too hepi to be back with him!!
yuhoo!!!!
BABY I LOVE U SO MUCH!!!
haha!!
i thought i was dreaming at first but,
the fact is im not..
i tink im the heppiest person now,
LOL!!
im just hepi again..
im gonna make up for wadever i did as promised..
hee!!
im never gonna let him go again..
he's the only one iLove..
and there'll be no secrets between us..
Mohd Noorshaheed iLove u!!
=]
-BeautyBrainz-
another day at work..
took off yesterday, had enuff rest..
well, im just so hepi..
finally, we're back together..
its unexpected i noe but its true,
we're back together as before..
oke2 let stay calm..
breathe in......................
and,
OUT!
haha!! i can't reali explain how im feeling now,
cos im too hepi to be back with him!!
yuhoo!!!!
BABY I LOVE U SO MUCH!!!
haha!!
i thought i was dreaming at first but,
the fact is im not..
i tink im the heppiest person now,
LOL!!
im just hepi again..
im gonna make up for wadever i did as promised..
hee!!
im never gonna let him go again..
he's the only one iLove..
and there'll be no secrets between us..
Mohd Noorshaheed iLove u!!
=]
-BeautyBrainz-
6:51 PM
its broken so what?
Thursday, August 14, 2008
well, i guess it all has ended.
he ain't giving another chance,
but i dun undrstand wads his intention to ask me back,
well, he can't blame me for asking alot of question,
can he??
i just couldn't believe wad i read, dats y i kept asking..
y can't he see dat i was surprised to see dat text?
all i want was a real confirmation dat he reali came back..
he didn't noe dat i was speechless whn he gave me dat text..
how hepi i was it was unexpected..
but, it was just for awhile,
he gave up after he can't ans the question i posted to him..
and told me to forget about it..
my joy turns out to sorrow.
tears rolled down,
and im speechless again..
even while im typing it now, tears rolled down continuously..
i tot he reali came back..
and i tot i could make up fpr wad i did to him b4..
i've planned to treat him well like how he treat me and took good care of me..
but, i guess its just a dream dat would never come true..
just hope he knows how much iLove him!
-BeautyBrainz-
he ain't giving another chance,
but i dun undrstand wads his intention to ask me back,
well, he can't blame me for asking alot of question,
can he??
i just couldn't believe wad i read, dats y i kept asking..
y can't he see dat i was surprised to see dat text?
all i want was a real confirmation dat he reali came back..
he didn't noe dat i was speechless whn he gave me dat text..
how hepi i was it was unexpected..
but, it was just for awhile,
he gave up after he can't ans the question i posted to him..
and told me to forget about it..
my joy turns out to sorrow.
tears rolled down,
and im speechless again..
even while im typing it now, tears rolled down continuously..
i tot he reali came back..
and i tot i could make up fpr wad i did to him b4..
i've planned to treat him well like how he treat me and took good care of me..
but, i guess its just a dream dat would never come true..
just hope he knows how much iLove him!
-BeautyBrainz-
10:01 PM
time slot!
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Jam '2' Da Beat 2008!
-BeautyBrainz-
Time Plan
| Hours | Event |
| 1000 | Set up of instrument - Arrival of performers - Sound check - Lead band performers in the waiting room |
| 1330 | Briefing for dancers - Crowd starts coming in |
| 1400 | Introducing judges |
| 1430 | Start of dance competition (open category) |
| 1600 | Start of competition (secondary category) |
| 1700 | Result presentation for open category to determine which 2 crew qualify for the face off. |
| 1715 | Start of competition (primary category) |
| 1745 | Arrival of GOH, Dr Lim Wee Kiak |
| 1815 | Face off between the top 2 crews. |
| 1830 | Special dance performance |
| 1845 | Result and prize presentation |
| 1900 | Introduction of next event - instrumental performance by aime, dider, sue & amat |
| 1915 | Performance by Evola |
| 1930 | Performance by Lepak |
| 1945 | Performance by F.O.M |
| 2000 | Performance by Knightwings |
| 2045 | Performance by Oncoming Tragedy |
| 2100 | Performance by Pulseofprimos |
| 2115 | Performance by On Hiatus |
| 2130 | Performance by Rockfella |
| 2145 | Encore performance - selected by crowd - selected by Knightwings |
| 2200 | End of show -Closing- |
| | |
| |
*All timings are estimated and subject to changes.
-BeautyBrainz-
11:56 PM
Baby I Want You Back!
i was shock the moment u texted me yesterday, u told me that you wanna be with me again. i couldn't believe wad im reading, could it be for real? ouhh baby please tell me.. i've waited so long and all i want is a confirmation.. but u got pissed and told me to forget about it.. i guess, its fated for me to go through all dis.. baby, i reali love u.. no matter what, ure still in my heart each day, im falling deeper into the arms of sorrow. i noe i can't deny wadever im goin through, i got to face it, i can't close my eyes, and hide the truth inside.. no matter how much u put me through, eventough its torturing me, i'll still go through and im never giving up. i'll sacrifice anitink for u, cos i love u soo much. even after wad u put me through, the hard times which i went through all by myself. my feelings for you will still remains. it will never change, it'll still be the same as how we first started. and im willing to take you back no matter wad.. cos ure the only one that i love..
Baby iLove u so much!
-BeautyBrainz-
i was shock the moment u texted me yesterday, u told me that you wanna be with me again. i couldn't believe wad im reading, could it be for real? ouhh baby please tell me.. i've waited so long and all i want is a confirmation.. but u got pissed and told me to forget about it.. i guess, its fated for me to go through all dis.. baby, i reali love u.. no matter what, ure still in my heart each day, im falling deeper into the arms of sorrow. i noe i can't deny wadever im goin through, i got to face it, i can't close my eyes, and hide the truth inside.. no matter how much u put me through, eventough its torturing me, i'll still go through and im never giving up. i'll sacrifice anitink for u, cos i love u soo much. even after wad u put me through, the hard times which i went through all by myself. my feelings for you will still remains. it will never change, it'll still be the same as how we first started. and im willing to take you back no matter wad.. cos ure the only one that i love..
Baby iLove u so much!
-BeautyBrainz-
7:50 PM
WHOA!!
isn't it cool or wad?
got few bands performing for me..
all of them has CONFIRMED!
yuhoo!!
there's gonna be bands like,
-Knightwings,
-F.O.M,
-Rockfella,
Oncoming Tragedy,
-Evola,
- Lepak,
-On Hiatus,
-Pulseofprimos
and my band will be performing too!!
cool!!!
yuhoo!!!
hehe!!!
just hope the dance category have
enuff dancers..
haizz!!
still stressed up abt the dance!!
S T R E S S ! !
haizz...
-BeautyBrainz-
isn't it cool or wad?
got few bands performing for me..
all of them has CONFIRMED!
yuhoo!!
there's gonna be bands like,
-Knightwings,
-F.O.M,
-Rockfella,
Oncoming Tragedy,
-Evola,
- Lepak,
-On Hiatus,
-Pulseofprimos
and my band will be performing too!!
cool!!!
yuhoo!!!
hehe!!!
just hope the dance category have
enuff dancers..
haizz!!
still stressed up abt the dance!!
S T R E S S ! !
haizz...
-BeautyBrainz-
2:07 AM
S T R E S S E D ! !
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
S H I T !
Damn!! im so F*CKING stressed up..
its been a week and i haven't finished my proposal yet?
dang! dammit! shit! f*ck!
ouhh brother,
stressed up with work, assignment and proposal..
and the best part is im stuck with the timings!!
argh!!!
damn,damn,damn!
wad more can i do? im juggling alot of stuff..
work, school, events, band, performance..
etc..etc..
whoa! wad should i do? imk a very confused gal at times
and im confuse now.
seriously!!
all i want now is to finish my proposal, submit it and got approved ASAP!!
cos haf to prepare flyers, tickets for sale, official tags,
and so on...
i bet i just haf to tell myself to go all out!
DAMN IT! U GOT NOT MUCH TIME LEFT! SO, BETTER GET MOVING FAST!
-BeautyBrainz-
Damn!! im so F*CKING stressed up..
its been a week and i haven't finished my proposal yet?
dang! dammit! shit! f*ck!
ouhh brother,
stressed up with work, assignment and proposal..
and the best part is im stuck with the timings!!
argh!!!
damn,damn,damn!
wad more can i do? im juggling alot of stuff..
work, school, events, band, performance..
etc..etc..
whoa! wad should i do? imk a very confused gal at times
and im confuse now.
seriously!!
all i want now is to finish my proposal, submit it and got approved ASAP!!
cos haf to prepare flyers, tickets for sale, official tags,
and so on...
i bet i just haf to tell myself to go all out!
DAMN IT! U GOT NOT MUCH TIME LEFT! SO, BETTER GET MOVING FAST!
-BeautyBrainz-
1:42 AM
Love that could never be replaced!
Thursday, August 7, 2008
Love that could never be replaced!
the moment i lay down,
all i could tink abt is u..
in fact, i would tink of u every min & every seconds!
i dunnoe why i have to go through this,
i'm just so lonely without u by myside..
i reali miss u,
but i dun tink u would believe..
i noe ure no longer mine but,
i just can't get u out of my life,
its so hard and its torturing me..
i wanna turn back time and be wif u..
spend my whole time with yea,
like how we use to back den..
a month goes by fast but yet,
my feelings for u is still strong..
it has never changed eversince..
still as strong as we first start..
and i noe im no longer in ure heart..
u've put me out of ure life and even ure mind..
and i noe ure heart is filled with sumwan precious..
i noe she's sumwan perfect,
unlike me whos good for nutink!
i noe u won't come back but,
just want u to noe dat i still love u..
ure love could never be replaced by anyone..
i noe i can't sae dis to u anymore,
by writing it i guess i could at least feel abit better..
SHAHEED I LOVE U!
AND I REALI MISS U DEAR!
-BeautyBrainz-
the moment i lay down,
all i could tink abt is u..
in fact, i would tink of u every min & every seconds!
i dunnoe why i have to go through this,
i'm just so lonely without u by myside..
i reali miss u,
but i dun tink u would believe..
i noe ure no longer mine but,
i just can't get u out of my life,
its so hard and its torturing me..
i wanna turn back time and be wif u..
spend my whole time with yea,
like how we use to back den..
a month goes by fast but yet,
my feelings for u is still strong..
it has never changed eversince..
still as strong as we first start..
and i noe im no longer in ure heart..
u've put me out of ure life and even ure mind..
and i noe ure heart is filled with sumwan precious..
i noe she's sumwan perfect,
unlike me whos good for nutink!
i noe u won't come back but,
just want u to noe dat i still love u..
ure love could never be replaced by anyone..
i noe i can't sae dis to u anymore,
by writing it i guess i could at least feel abit better..
SHAHEED I LOVE U!
AND I REALI MISS U DEAR!
-BeautyBrainz-
11:07 PM
why can't i get u out?
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Ure still on my mind!
its like so difficult to let u out!
maybe im just too in love with yea..
its just so hard for me..
i've tried my best,
i've even pretend not to love u anymore..
but it seems like my feelings towards yea is not fading..
in fact, i felt like its gettting stronger..
i dun wana be on my own
cos i need sumwan to guide me through out..
i can't find any guy better den u..
its so hard fer me..
all i nid now is ure love..
i miss u so much!
how i wish ure with me rite now..
by myside..
i reali wanna be in ure arms..
i miss the time u held me tite in ure arms,
u gave ure sweater n hold me close,
u kept me warm whn im in cold,
despite d fact dat ure not feeling well,
and ure cold too..
i miss those days..
our memories still lingers in my mind,
everynite i pray dat we could be as b4..
i meant wad i sae,
and i reali hope dat u'll come back!
-BeautyBrainz-
maybe im just too in love with yea..
its just so hard for me..
i've tried my best,
i've even pretend not to love u anymore..
but it seems like my feelings towards yea is not fading..
in fact, i felt like its gettting stronger..
i dun wana be on my own
cos i need sumwan to guide me through out..
i can't find any guy better den u..
its so hard fer me..
all i nid now is ure love..
i miss u so much!
how i wish ure with me rite now..
by myside..
i reali wanna be in ure arms..
i miss the time u held me tite in ure arms,
u gave ure sweater n hold me close,
u kept me warm whn im in cold,
despite d fact dat ure not feeling well,
and ure cold too..
i miss those days..
our memories still lingers in my mind,
everynite i pray dat we could be as b4..
i meant wad i sae,
and i reali hope dat u'll come back!
-BeautyBrainz-
8:05 PM
Confidence is the recipe in life!
Monday, August 4, 2008
Confidence!
well, i've learnt something new i guess..
SINGLE ,is the key!
i guess i could moved on now,
tink about the past, making myself insane..
nahh!!
not anymore i must be
CONFIDENT!!
i've build myself up n ready to face it now!
i guess no use waiting fer sumwan dat could never be ures!
cos they DON'T APPRECIATE and NEVER WILL!!
so, why wait?
lets just move on nenjoy life to the fullest!
cos if they do appreciate us,
they wouldn't haf left u..
they would come back..
by forgiving..
but he doesn't..
dats y after begging he still refuses..
it shows dat ure not being appreciated..
FCUK!
who cares anyway..
ure on ure own gal!!
achieving my dreams..
as a secretary,
a student,
and a daughter!
great isn't it!
enjoying it now!
love my life now more den ever!
sorry if i offended u..
if ure reading dis..
how u feel now is how im feeling..
-BeautyBrainz-
1:02 AM